Please Choose Life

20th July 2017- Chester Bennington committed suicide. 

Wikipedia says your death occurred on what would have been Chris Cornell’s 53rd birthday only he hung himself 2 months prior. I listened to your songs over and over until the lyrics began to sound like words from a letter you didn’t write. I cannot pretend for a minute that I know your life, I’ve tried too many times to imagine what must have gone through your mind. Maybe you thought of writing but who would you write to? Your parents? Children? Lover? Friends? Fans? How do you explain all the things that has led to that moment? How do you tell the people you love that you are not healing the way they thought you were? How do you know that you won’t be misunderstood? 

Note to self-

If you ever think of giving up on life and ending it all one day, I pray you have a minute to remember all the things that are worth living for. I hope you remember your mother’s smile,your lover’s touch, the sound of the rain,the smell of new books, the taste of frozen yogurt.Think of the wonderful places you’ve not been to and all the feelings you have not yet experienced. If you ever consider turning off the light,that is you, I pray you have a minute to remember to choose life.